Jewish mystical tradition has a fascinating way of explaining that feeling. It uses the concept of Partzufim (divine "faces" or configurations) and their ascents to higher states of being.
Now, this isn't about physical ascension, but rather a transformation of consciousness. Think of it like this: imagine Russian nesting dolls, each doll fitting inside the next. The outer doll remains, seemingly unchanged, but its inner essence becomes more radiant, more potent.
The Kalach Pitchei Chokhmah, a Kabbalistic text, explores this very idea. It describes these ascents as processes where the "exterior" of something remains intact, its basic functions unchanged. But – and this is key – the interior experiences a significant enhancement.
Let’s break it down. The text gives the example of Zeir Anpin (a divine configuration associated with the emotional attributes) taking something from Imma (the divine Mother, linked to understanding). Or, conversely, Imma taking something for Zeir Anpin as she ascends. The point is, whatever is being transferred or gained, it's always the inner dimension that's being amplified, becoming more intensely radiant. It's not a replacement, but an enhancement.
Think of it like upgrading your phone. The case might look the same, but the processor inside is far more powerful, allowing you to do so much more.
The text then shifts gears and discusses the Neshamah Yeseira, the "Additional Soul" that enters a person, particularly on Shabbat. When this happens, our original soul doesn't disappear. Instead, it becomes absorbed, almost hidden, within this extra soul. It's like the original soul is now operating under the guidance and influence of a more expansive, enlightened consciousness. The original soul functions only as if it is absorbed within the Additional Soul, which is the one that acts.
Now, a key difference is highlighted. The Partzufim, in their ascent, don’t just leave their original interior behind for the Partzuf below. Humans don't work that way either. Instead, in the human experience, the first soul remains absorbed and hidden within the Extra Soul. This is profound. We don't discard our past selves, our foundational experiences. They become integrated, informing and enriching our present, elevated state.
So, the next time you feel like you're operating at a higher level, remember the concept of ascent. Remember the Partzufim, the additional soul. Maybe it's not about becoming someone completely new, but about allowing your inner radiance to shine brighter, informed by all that you've been, all that you've learned. It's about integration, not obliteration. It's about becoming a more powerful, more enlightened version of yourself, while still honoring the journey that brought you here.