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Moses Walked Into the Darkness Where God Was Hiding

At Sinai every other Israelite fled from the thunder and lightning. Moses walked toward the thick darkness. The rabbis asked why God chose shadow.

Curated by Arthur · Told by Maggid ·
Table of Contents
  1. Everyone Else Ran
  2. Why God Hides in Shadow
  3. Letters That Were Waiting Before the World
  4. The Oil That Multiplied Without Being Consumed

Everyone Else Ran

The thunder came first, then the lightning, then the voice of the shofar growing louder until the people at the base of Sinai could not hold their ground. They drew back. They told Moses: you speak to us and we will listen, but let God not speak to us directly or we will die. The terror was genuine. Even standing at the mountain's foot, with the fire and cloud above them, was more than the people could bear.

Moses turned and walked toward it.

The Torah records the detail with minimal commentary: Moses drew near to the thick darkness where God was. Not the light. Not the radiance that sat atop the mountain like a consuming fire visible from a distance. The darkness. He walked into the darkness on purpose, while everyone else retreated to the camp.

Why God Hides in Shadow

The rabbis understood the darkness theologically, not atmospherically. God surrounds himself with obscurity precisely because full exposure would be unbearable. The darkness is not an absence of God but a form of protection, a buffer between divine reality and human capacity to absorb it. Only Moses, of all those who stood at the mountain that day, had developed the interior steadiness to enter that buffer zone and continue moving.

Pirkei DeRabbi Eliezer, the early medieval midrash, notes a grammatical distinction that carries the entire argument: for the rest of the commandments, God spoke to Moses, but for this one, Moses drew near to God. The direction of movement reversed. Most of revelation comes outward, from the divine toward the human. Here the human moved inward, into territory that belongs to God alone. It was not Moses's power that made this possible. It was his having been shaped, over decades, into someone who no longer found divine obscurity threatening.

Letters That Were Waiting Before the World

In the heavens, as Moses prepared to receive the Torah, the rabbis preserved a teaching about the letters he would bring down with him. Five letters in the Hebrew alphabet appear in two forms depending on their position in a word, and those doubled forms, the tradition says, Moses himself received and transmitted. They had been given to earlier prophets but sealed, held back, waiting. The reason those final forms of the letters existed at all was connected to Moses and the words he would eventually speak.

Moses stood before the Tabernacle in the first month of the second year after the exodus, on the first day of the month, and completed its erection. The rabbis noticed that the day carried the weight of eight previous dedications folded into it, eight days of creation-work converging in a single morning. When Moses spoke the blessing over the finished sanctuary, the heavens and the earth fell silent. Everything paused to hear him.

The Oil That Multiplied Without Being Consumed

The anointing oil Moses prepared for the Tabernacle was twelve logs' worth, roughly six liters, and it was used to consecrate every object and every priest in the sanctuary. The rabbis calculated what it would have taken to anoint all the things that oil was said to have anointed across the history of the sanctuary, through the wilderness years and into the kingdom period, and the numbers did not add up by ordinary measure. What Moses prepared in the wilderness was still being used generations later. The oil had done what the burning bush did: remained itself without being consumed.


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Pirkei DeRabbi Eliezer 41:15Pirkei DeRabbi Eliezer

Why from darkness? Pirkei DeRabbi Eliezer, a fascinating text of Jewish lore, gives us a glimpse into this mystery.

The passage points out that when it comes to Moses, the Torah specifically says he "drew near" to God (Exodus 24:2). But for the rest of the commandments? God spoke through Moses. It's like (Proverbs 25:13) says: "As the cold of snow in the time of harvest, so is a faithful messenger to them that send him." Moses was the ultimate faithful messenger, delivering God’s word.

Let's get back to that darkness. Why did God choose to reveal His voice “out of the midst of the darkness, and not out of the midst of the light,” as (2 (Samuel 15:1)0) puts it?

Pirkei DeRabbi Eliezer uses a parable to explain. Imagine a king marrying off his son. He hangs black curtains in the wedding chamber, not white. Why? Because he knows his son will only remain with his wife for forty days. He doesn’t want people saying he was an astrologer who foresaw the marriage’s end but did nothing. He knew.

This, the text suggests, is like God, whose son is Israel, and the bride is the Torah. The Holy One, blessed be He, knew that Israel wouldn't remain loyal to the commandments forever, specifically, for more than forty days (a poignant reminder of the Golden Calf incident). Therefore, God chose to reveal His voice from darkness, rather than light.

It's a powerful image. It suggests that even within the most sacred union, there's an awareness of fragility, a shadow of potential failure. And perhaps, paradoxically, that awareness is what makes the connection all the more precious and real. It’s why (Deuteronomy 5:28) emphasizes, "And it came to pass, when ye heard the voice..." The hearing, the acknowledgment of that voice in the darkness, is key.

So, the next time you find yourself encountering wisdom or truth in an unexpected or even uncomfortable place, remember the darkness at Sinai. Maybe it’s not about the absence of light, but about the presence of something profound that can only be truly heard in the shadows. What do you think? Is it about lowering expectations, or about appreciating the gift for what it is, while it lasts?

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Bereshit Rabbah 1:11Bereshit Rabbah

Rabbi Simon, quoting Rabbi Yehoshua ben Levi, shares something fascinating about the letters mem, nun, tzadi, peh, and kaf. You know, those letters that have different forms depending on where they land in a word – whether at the beginning, middle, or end? According to this tradition in Bereshit Rabbah, the prophets spoke of these letter forms, but the underlying halakha, or law, was actually transmitted to Moses himself at Sinai! It's like the prophets were re-discovering something ancient, a piece of knowledge that had been passed down but perhaps temporarily forgotten.

Rabbi Yirmeya, quoting Rabbi Ḥiyya bar Abba, adds that what the prophets "instituted" was perhaps a re-establishment of this tradition. Now, isn’t that intriguing?

The text then tells a story. Imagine a stormy day. The Sages couldn't make it to the bet midrash – the house of assembly, the place where Torah was expounded. But some children were there, bright and curious. So, they decided to create their own bet midrash! They started pondering: Why are there two forms of mem, two forms of nun, and so on?

Their answer? Prepare to be amazed. The different forms allude to the transmission of Torah itself! It went "from utterance [ma’amar] to utterance, from a faithful one [ne’eman] to a faithful one, from a righteous one [tzadik] to a righteous one, from mouth [peh] to mouth, from hand [kaf] to hand.": from the utterance of the Holy One, blessed be He, to the utterance of Moses. From the Holy One, called “God, faithful King,” to Moses, who the Torah calls faithful: "In all My house he is faithful" (Numbers 12:7). From the Holy One, who is righteous – "Righteous is the Lord in all His ways" (Psalms 145:17) – to Moses, who "performed the righteousness of the Lord" (Deuteronomy 33:21). From the mouth of God to the mouth of Moses. From the hand of God to the hand of Moses.

Isn't that powerful?

The Sages recognized the brilliance of these children, and, as the story goes, great sages emerged from among them later in life – some even say they were Rabbi Eliezer, Rabbi Yehoshua, and Rabbi Akiva! The verse from Proverbs (20:11) seems to fit perfectly: “Even a boy is recognized through his deeds, if his action is pure or upright.”

So, what does this all mean? It suggests that the very shapes of the Hebrew letters, especially those with dual forms, aren't just arbitrary. They hold a deep, almost mystical connection to the transmission of divine wisdom. They whisper of a chain of faithfulness, righteousness, and direct communication stretching all the way back to Sinai.

Next time you see a mem sofit – the final form of the letter mem – remember this story. Remember the children, the storm, and the profound connection between the shapes of the letters and the unbroken chain of tradition. It might just change how you see the Torah forever.

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Sifrei Devarim 306:10Sifrei Devarim

When Moses Spoke the Heavens and Earth Stood Still is the question behind this passage from Sifrei Devarim.

It’s an incredible image, isn’t it? A moment of perfect attentiveness.

You might be thinking, "That sounds a bit far-fetched, doesn't it?" And the text anticipates this! It says, "And if this seems strange to you…" It then directs us to another extraordinary event, this time involving Joshua. Remember the story in (Joshua 10:12-14)? When Joshua needed more daylight to win a battle, he commanded the sun and moon to stand still, and they obeyed! "Sun in Givon, stand still, and moon in the valley of Ayalon." The text emphasizes, "And the sun stood still and the moon stopped… and there was no day like that…"

Why bring up Joshua's miracle? What's the connection?

The Sifrei Devarim draws a powerful conclusion. The text explains, "We are hereby taught that the righteous rule in the entire universe." It’s not about magic tricks or supernatural powers. It's about the profound influence of righteousness. Moses and Joshua, through their unwavering commitment to justice and their deep connection to the Divine, wielded a power that transcended the physical realm. Their words held sway over creation itself.

This isn't about literal dominion, of course. It's about the impact of a life lived with integrity. When we strive to do what's right, when we speak truth, when we act with compassion, our actions ripple outwards, influencing the world around us in ways we may never fully comprehend.

It’s a humbling and inspiring thought, isn't it? That our choices, our words, our very being can contribute to the harmony – or disharmony – of the entire universe. The story of Moses and Joshua reminds us that we all have the potential to be righteous, to be heard, and to make a difference, however small it may seem. What will you say, knowing the universe is listening?

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Bamidbar Rabbah 12:15Bamidbar Rabbah

It wasn't just a matter of unfolding some tents and calling it a day. The Torah tells us, in (Exodus 40:17), that it was "in the first month during the second year, on the first of the month, the Tabernacle was erected." But what kind of erection are we talking about?

The Rabbis of the Midrash (rabbinic interpretive commentary) delve deep into the details, asking a seemingly simple question: "It was on the day that Moses concluded" – what day was it? Bamidbar Rabbah explores this verse, and the answers they come up with are fascinating.

Rabbi Zeira raises an interesting point, suggesting that if the Tabernacle was erected at night, it couldn't be used for service during the day. Then it gets even more intricate. We have different opinions on just how much erecting and dismantling Moses was doing. Rabbi Ḥiyya bar Yosef suggests Moses erected and dismantled it twice daily, once in the morning and once in the evening. But Rabbi Ḥanina the Great ups the ante, saying it happened three times a day! According to him, it was once for the daily morning offering, once for the inauguration itself, and once for the daily evening offering.

Where does the idea of dismantling come from, anyway? Rabbi Zeira cleverly points out: "The day that Moses concluded" – the day that his erections [of it] concluded. If there were multiple instances of erecting, there must have been multiple instances of dismantling too.

So, picture this: on the New Moon of Nisan, the Tabernacle goes up. Then, on the second of Nisan, the red heifer is burned – a crucial step for purification. The next day, the third of Nisan, the water containing the ashes of the red heifer is sprinkled upon the Levites, as (Numbers 8:7) instructs: "Sprinkle upon them purification water."

But here's where it gets even more interesting. Remember the Golden Calf incident? Because the Levites took action against the idol worshippers, as we read in (Exodus 32:27)–28 ("Each slay his brother.… The sons of Levi acted in accordance with the word of Moses…"), they were considered ritually impure, defiled by contact with the dead. Normally, they'd require two sprinklings with the purification water. But, instead of the second sprinkling, God commanded them to shave, a fascinating substitution!

And it wasn't just the Tabernacle and the Levites getting prepped. Moses himself was sanctified in the cloud for seven days, as (Exodus 24:16) describes: "The glory of the Lord rested upon Mount Sinai." Aaron and his sons? They were sanctified with oil and blood, as (Leviticus 8:30) details: "Moses took from the anointing oil, and from the blood that was on the altar, and he sprinkled it on Aaron [and on his vestments, and on his sons, and on the vestments of his sons with him, and he sanctified Aaron and his vestments, and his sons and the vestments of his sons with him]." Aaron, being the High Priest, got the extra special treatment of having the anointing oil poured directly on his head.

The Midrash goes on to meticulously describe how the Levites were sanctified – with sprinkling, shaving, offerings, and a wave offering. And, of course, the Tabernacle itself was sanctified through erecting, dismantling, and anointing.

There's a debate about the order and method of anointing. Rabbi Aivu asks, if it says "He anointed it and sanctified it," why does it also say "He anointed them and sanctified them?" Rabbi Aivu brings in opinions from Rabbi Taḥlifa of Caesarea and Rabbi Shimon ben Lakish. One suggests that after each individual anointing, there was a collective anointing. The other proposes that "He anointed them" refers to an anointing in this world and another in the World to Come, signifying that the vessels were sanctified for all time.

Similarly, the Midrash explores the verse "And attached the sheets one to another with the hooks" (Exodus 36:13), questioning why the verse then states "And the Tabernacle was one." Again, Rabbi Aivu cites Rabbi Taḥlifa of Caesarea and Rabbi Shimon ben Lakish. One says that after attaching each sheet individually, they were all attached together. The other suggests that "the Tabernacle was one" signifies both uniformity in size and a unified anointing.

The discussion even explores the specifics of which vessels were anointed and how. Rabbi Yoshiya believes liquid measures were anointed inside and out, while dry measures were only anointed inside. Rabbi Yonatan disagrees, saying liquid measures were only anointed inside, and dry measures weren't anointed at all.

The key takeaway? Vessels that weren't anointed couldn't sanctify their contents. As (Leviticus 23:17) states, referring to the two loaves of waving, "From your dwellings you shall bring two loaves of waving…[they shall be baked as leavened bread, a first offering to the Lord]." They only become holy after they're baked.

So, what does all this meticulous detail tell us? It highlights the immense care and precision that went into preparing the Tabernacle, the Levites, and the people for service to God. It wasn't a haphazard affair. Every step was deliberate, every detail significant. And perhaps, it also reminds us that holiness isn't just about grand gestures, but also about the small, seemingly insignificant acts of preparation and dedication. Just something to think about.

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Vayikra Rabbah 10:8Vayikra Rabbah

Moses stood in the wilderness, preparing a special oil. According to Rabbi Yehuda ben Rabbi Ilai, this wasn't just any oil; it was a vessel for miracles from the very beginning. The text in Exodus (30:31) specifies "zeh shall be the sacred anointing oil for Me." Zeh? What’s so special about that word? Well, in Hebrew, letters also have numerical values, a system known as gematria. And the numerical value of zeh? Twelve.

So, twelve log – a liquid measure – of oil. That’s it. Now, think about everything this oil was used for!

In our text in, Vayikra Rabbah, it was used to consecrate the golden altar, the bronze altar, the table, the candelabrum – all their implements, even the basin and its base. And not just them, but also future High Priests and even kings! I mean, how much oil could possibly be left after all that?

It seems impossible. It should have been used up just soaking the branches used to infuse the oil with fragrance! The Midrash (rabbinic interpretive commentary) asks: How much was burned? How much was absorbed by the wood? How much soaked into the cauldron? And yet, according to this tradition, the oil miraculously never ran out.

Even if a High Priest was the son of a High Priest for ten generations, he still needed to be anointed! But here's a twist: you don't anoint a king who's the son of a king.. usually. So why was Solomon anointed?

Well, that was because of Adoniyahu, David's son, who tried to seize the throne. To make it absolutely clear that Solomon was the rightful heir, anointing him was a necessity. We see similar situations with Yoash, who was anointed because of Atalya, and Yehoahaz, because his older brother Yehoyakim was next in line. These were exceptional circumstances that called for anointing.

And the really amazing part? The Midrash concludes by saying that this original amount of oil, this "zeh," will remain intact in the future! A constant, unbroken connection to that initial act of consecration.

There's a fascinating little detail about where and how kings are anointed. Kings are only anointed near a spring. We see this in the story of Solomon in (1 (Kings 1:3)3), where he's taken down to Gihon to be anointed. And they're anointed from a horn – a keren. Why a horn? Because, the text explains, Saul and Yehu were anointed from a cruse (a simple jar), and their reigns were transient. But David and Solomon? Their kingdom was meant to be eternal, so they were anointed from a horn, symbolizing strength and enduring power.

So, what do we take away from this story? It's more than just a quaint legend about a never-ending supply of oil. It's about the power of consecration, the importance of legitimate leadership, and the enduring promise of the Davidic line. It reminds us that even within the seemingly mundane details of ritual, there are layers of meaning and miracles waiting to be discovered. And it makes you wonder, what "oil" do we have in our lives that, against all odds, continues to sustain and inspire us?

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Legends of the Jews 4:158Legends of the Jews

As Moses neared the mountain, he immediately sensed its holiness. He saw that even the birds passing overhead wouldn't dare land upon it.

It gets even more dramatic. As Moses approached, the mountain itself began to move, as if eager to greet him! Can you picture it? This colossal, immovable object shifting, straining forward, only to settle back down the moment Moses' foot touched its surface. It's like the mountain was saying, "Welcome, Moses. We've been waiting for you."

Then, there it was: the burning bush. Not just any fire,. This was a "wonderful burning bush," as Ginzberg describes it, with flames leaping from its upper branches. But here's the truly miraculous part: the bush wasn't consumed. It continued to blossom even as it burned. A fire that creates life, that sustains rather than destroys. It defies everything we know about the natural world.

The celestial fire, we're told, has three unique characteristics. It produces blossoms, it doesn't consume what it surrounds, and it's black in color. Black fire! It's almost too much to take in, isn't it?

Now, who was behind this awe-inspiring sight? According to the legend, the fire Moses saw was actually the angel Michael. He had descended as a precursor, paving the way for the Shekinah (שכינה), the divine presence itself, to descend.

Why all this spectacle? Well, God wanted to speak with Moses. But Moses, ever the diligent shepherd, was preoccupied with his duties. He wasn't inclined to pause his work. So, God used the burning bush, this extraordinary phenomenon, to grab his attention. It was a divine interruption, a cosmic "excuse me!" that brought Moses to a standstill. And only then, when Moses was fully present, did God speak.

What does this tell us? Perhaps that sometimes we need those interruptions, those moments of the unexpected, to truly connect with something greater than ourselves. Maybe we need our own burning bush to pull us away from the everyday and remind us of the divine spark that exists within the world, and within ourselves. Just like Moses, maybe we need to stop, look, and listen for the voice that's calling to us.

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Mekhilta Tractate Bachodesh 2:21Mekhilta DeRabbi Yishmael

The Mekhilta DeRabbi Yishmael examines God's words to Moses in the days before the revelation at Sinai: "Behold, I shall come to you in the thickness of the cloud" (Exodus 19:9). The rabbis wanted to know exactly what this "thickness of cloud" meant, and they found their answer in another verse from the same chapter of Exodus.

The thick cloud, the Mekhilta explains, is the arafel, the deep darkness described in (Exodus 20:18): "and Moses drew near to the arafel, where God was." The arafel is not ordinary cloud cover or simple fog. It is a specific kind of impenetrable darkness that serves as a veil between the divine and the human, a boundary that only Moses was permitted to cross.

This detail matters because it establishes the conditions of revelation. God did not appear to Israel in clear light or open sky. He came wrapped in layers of cloud and darkness, making Himself known through concealment rather than exposure. The people could hear the thunder and see the lightning. They could feel the mountain trembling. But the actual presence of God remained hidden within the arafel, accessible only to Moses.

The theological implication is significant. Even at the moment of greatest divine revelation in Jewish history, God remained fundamentally hidden. The arafel teaches that knowing God means approaching darkness, not light. It means pressing forward into what cannot be seen or fully understood. Moses drew near to the arafel, the Torah says, and that act of walking into divine darkness became the model for all Jewish encounters with the sacred: a willingness to approach what remains, by its very nature, beyond human comprehension.

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Kalach Pitchei Chokhmah 47:34Kalach Pitchei Chokhmah

In the ancient wisdom of the Kalach Pitchei Chokhmah, a profound answer emerges.

Think of it like this: Imagine a series of containers, each designed to hold light. But some are closer to a source of darkness, a source of what we might call "evil." The closer a container is to that darkness, the less light it can truly hold.

The Kalach Pitchei Chokhmah, a Kabbalistic text whose title translates roughly to "Key to the Gates of Wisdom," suggests that the capacity of a vessel – and here, "vessel" means anything that can receive or hold something, like a sefirah (a divine emanation) or even ourselves – to receive light is directly related to its distance from evil. But what does that mean, "distance from evil?"

The text explains that it all boils down to the "maintenance of evil." The lowest level, the one closest to the source, is the one that actively maintains it. The level above it, while not directly responsible, is still near enough to be affected. And so on, up the ladder.

Now, in Kabbalah, we often talk about the sefirot (singular: sefirah), the ten emanations of God's divine energy. Think of them as attributes or aspects of the Divine, each playing a crucial role in creation. So, in this context, each sefirah has a certain capacity to receive light.

The text is telling us that the higher the sefirah is, the more distant it is from the lowest sefirah which is the one that maintains the darkness, the greater its capacity to receive light. It’s a graduated scale. The further away, the purer the vessel.

So, what does it mean to maintain evil? It doesn't necessarily mean actively causing harm. Sometimes, it means clinging to negativity, resisting growth, or refusing to let go of limiting beliefs. And the closer we are to those things, the more difficult it becomes to truly shine.

The key takeaway here is the idea of cleansing. "The greatness of the lights in the vessels," the verse says, "corresponds to the degree to which they have been cleansed." The more purified a vessel is, the more radiant it becomes. The more we purify ourselves, the more light we are able to hold and emanate into the world.

This isn't just some abstract concept. It has profound implications for our lives. It suggests that we have the power to increase our capacity for light by distancing ourselves from negativity and actively pursuing purification. By working on our own inner vessels, we can become brighter beacons in a world that desperately needs light.

And isn't that something worth striving for?

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Yalkut Shimoni on Torah 302:1Yalkut Shimoni on Torah

"And Moses drew near to the thick darkness" (Exodus 20:18). What enabled him to do so? His humility, as it is said, "Now the man Moses was very humble" and so on (Numbers 12:3). Scripture tells us that whoever is humble will in the end cause the Divine Presence to dwell with a person on the earth, as it is said, "For thus says the high and lofty One who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also who is of a contrite and humble spirit" (Isaiah 57:15). And it says, "The spirit of the LORD God is upon me, because the LORD has anointed me to bring good tidings to the humble" (Isaiah 61:1). And it says, "For all these things My hand has made, and so all these things came to be, says the LORD; but to this man will I look, to him who is poor and of a contrite spirit" (Isaiah 66:2); "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit" (Psalms 51:19).

But whoever is haughty of heart causes the land to be defiled and the Divine Presence to depart, as it is said, "Him who has a haughty look and a proud heart I cannot endure" (Psalms 101:5). And everyone who is haughty of heart is called an abomination, as it is said, "Everyone who is proud in heart is an abomination to the LORD" (Proverbs 16:5). And one who worships idols is called an abomination, as it is said, "You shall not bring an abomination into your house" (Deuteronomy 7:26). Just as idolatry defiles the land and drives away the Divine Presence, so too whoever is haughty of heart causes the land to be defiled and the Divine Presence to depart.

"And Moses drew near to the thick darkness" (Exodus 20:18): within three partitions, darkness, cloud, and thick darkness; darkness on the outside, cloud within, and thick darkness in the innermost place, as it is said, "And Moses drew near to the thick darkness" and so on.

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