Even Moses, the great lawgiver himself, felt that way.
In Midrash Tehillim, a collection of rabbinic interpretations on the Book of Psalms, we find a fascinating glimpse into Moses's burning desire to understand God's ways. It all starts with the verse, "Make known to me Your ways, O Lord." (Psalm 25:4).
Rabbi Berachiah, quoting Rabbi Yochanan, paints a beautiful analogy. Imagine a skilled physician teaching his apprentice everything he knows... except for one particular wound. The physician then turns to his student and says, "You've mastered so much. Teach me how to heal this." That’s kind of what's going on here. Moses, despite his incredible relationship with God, is essentially asking, "Show me how You run the universe." As it says, "He made known His ways to Moses" (Psalms 103:7) and "Show me Your glory" (Exodus 33:18), meaning the way that You conduct the world.
But it's not that simple, is it? As Rabbi Zeira says in the name of Resh Lakish, God basically tells Moses, "You can't fully grasp it." It's like trying to fit the ocean into a teacup.
The midrash (rabbinic interpretive commentary) then takes an interesting turn. Moses reminds God of past instances where he felt appeased – when the Israelites threatened to stone him, and when he argued with them. "And Moses took the tent and pitched it outside the camp" (Exodus 33:7). This teaches us, says Rabbi Yehuda, that seeking out an elder, like Moses, is akin to seeking the Divine Presence itself! Imagine that level of respect and reverence.
But God also points out that Moses has some strong personalities around him. "You have two hot-headed individuals in your midst, the teacher and the disciple." Maybe that's why things are feeling so intense. And so, God allows Moses to bring the tent back into the camp, signifying a reconciliation. Rabbi Acha then seizes the opportunity to pray for God to reveal His ways to Israel. After all, "The Rock!—His work is perfect" (Deuteronomy 32:4).
The midrash then draws a parallel between Moses and Samuel the Ramathite. (Jeremiah 15:1) says, "Even if Moses and Samuel stood before Me..." highlighting their equal stature. The text emphasizes the similarities: both were Levites, both sang songs, both led Israel, both reigned for forty years, both waged wars, and so on. The comparison underscores the idea that even after Moses, there were individuals who possessed a deep connection with the Divine.
Finally, Moses asks God to reveal how He deals with the nations of the world. He yearns to understand the grand cosmic plan. And the text concludes with a reflection on the concept of waiting for God, even "all day long." Since this world is a day for the nations of the world and a night for Israel, therefore, I waited for You all day long.
So, what can we take away from this? Maybe it's that the quest for understanding God's ways is a lifelong journey, one that even the greatest figures in our tradition wrestled with. It's a reminder that humility, seeking wisdom from elders, and persistent prayer are all vital steps on that path. And perhaps, just perhaps, a little patience too. After all, some mysteries are meant to unfold over time.
"Make known to me Your ways, O Lord." Rabbi Berachiah said in the name of Rabbi Yochanan: "It is compared to a physician who had a disciple and taught him all types of healing except for a certain wound. The physician said to the disciple, 'You have taught me all types of healing except for this particular wound. Please teach it to me.' Similarly, Moses said to God, 'Make known to me Your ways.' And it says, 'He made known His ways to Moses' (Psalms 103:7) and 'Show me Your glory' (Exodus 33:18), meaning the way that You conduct the world."God replied to Moses, "You cannot comprehend My ways." Rabbi Zeira said in the name of Resh Lakish: "Moses said to the Holy One, blessed be He, 'When I said to You, "They will soon stone me" (Exodus 17:4), You appeased me. And likewise when I argued with the Israelites, You appeased me. As it says, 'And Moses took the tent and pitched it outside the camp' (Exodus 33:7). And it teaches us to learn from the humble, to be like the disciple to his teacher. Rabbi Yehuda said, 'It says, "Anyone who seeks out Moses" (Exodus 33:7), but it should have said, "Anyone who seeks out God." This teaches us that whoever seeks out the face of an elder is considered as if he seeks out the face of the Divine Presence.'" God said to Moses, "You have two hot-headed individuals in your midst, the teacher and the disciple. If that is the case, go back to them." As it says, 'And the Lord spoke to Moses face to face' (Exodus 33:11). I don't know what this verse means. When it says, 'And return to the camp' (Exodus 33:14), it teaches us that God allowed Moses to rescind his vow and brought the tent back into the camp. At that moment, Rabbi Acha found his opening to pray to God to make known to Israel the ways of God." As it is said (Deuteronomy 32:4), "The Rock! — His work is perfect." And similarly, we find in Samuel the Ramathite that he was held in the same esteem as Moses, as it is said (Jeremiah 15:1), "Even if Moses and Samuel stood before Me..." And it is said (Psalm 99:6), "Moses and Aaron were among His priests, and Samuel among those who called on His name." And you can find that everything written about one is also written about the other. This one is Levi, and this one is Levi. This one sang a song, and this one sang a song. This one was king over Israel, and this one was king over Israel. This one reigned for forty years, and this one reigned for forty years. This one waged wars, and this one waged wars. This one killed kings, and this one killed kings. This one built altars, and this one built altars. This one offered sacrifices, and this one offered sacrifices. This one read from the Torah, and this one read from the Torah. This one prayed for Israel, and this one prayed for Israel. This one served as a priest, and this one served as a priest. Another thing: "Inform me, please, of Your ways" (Exodus 33:13). He said before Him, "Inform me, in what manner do You deal with the nations of the world?" He directed me in His truth and taught me, for You are my God, and for You, I waited all day long. And is it possible for a person to pray all day long? Rather, since this world is a day for the nations of the world and a night for Israel, therefore, I waited for You all day long....