Seganzegael's Tears Fell Hot on Ishmael's Face
Rabbi Ishmael asked why the angel was weeping. Seganzegael opened the tablets and showed him letters written with grief.
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Seganzegael, Prince of the Presence, pulled Rabbi Ishmael against his chest.
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"My friend, sit in my bosom," he said, "and I shall tell thee what is to come upon Israel."
Sit in My Bosom
Ishmael sat. The angel's chest was not warm the way flesh is warm. It was warm the way a furnace is warm behind iron. Then Seganzegael gazed at him and began to weep, and the tears ran without pause from those eyes and fell upon Ishmael's face.
"Why does your Excellency weep?" Ishmael asked.
The question was small. The answer would not fit in a mouth. Seganzegael rose and took him by the hand. He led him through inmost chambers, secret rooms, treasuries where light is stored the way grain is stored against famine.
Letters Written With Grief
Tablets stood in rows. Seganzegael took them and opened them. Letters crowded their faces. Each letter was not a lesson. Each letter was a grief with a name still waiting to happen to Israel.
"For whom are these?" Ishmael asked.
"For Israel," the Prince said.
Ishmael wanted to close his eyes. Closing eyes does not work in a place made of seeing. The letters kept arranging themselves into years. Sword for the sword. Hunger for hunger. Captivity for those who would be led away.
"And can Israel bear them?" he asked.
"Come tomorrow," Seganzegael said, "and I shall teach thee of griefs yet different from these."
Can Israel Bear Them
On the morrow the Prince took him in again. The second set of tablets was more bitter than the first. Ishmael looked and asked the question that had been sitting in his throat since the tears first fell.
"Did then, your Excellency, Israel alone sin?"
Seganzegael did not soften the inventory. Griefs more bitter than these are laid on them anew each day. Then he showed Ishmael the one latch that still held. When Israel assembles in synagogues and schools and says, "Amen. Let the great name be blessed," the angels do not permit those griefs to go forth from the inmost chambers.
Ishmael's own tears mixed with the angel's until he could not tell which salt was whose. The future was written. The Amen still barred the door.
They Beat Upon Their Crowns
Not every power in those heights only weeps. Other beings stand ready when wrath rises against the children. They cancel decrees. They annul vows. They avert anger. They quiet jealousy. They cause the love of Abraham to be remembered when the court grows cold.
When they see their King angry, they do not offer polite words. They beat upon their crowns. They ungird their loins. They strike their heads. They fall on their faces.
"Release, release, O Maker of Creation!" they cry. "Pardon, pardon, O mighty One of Jacob! Atone, atone, O Holy One of Israel!"
Ishmael watched them bruise themselves on Israel's behalf. Even intercession needed a witness who had felt the salt. Without the advocates, the tablets would be only doom. Without the tablets, the advocates would be only theater. The tears had permission because the court was real.
Faces No One Could Keep
Higher still, faces of loftiness and splendor lifted themselves and held themselves on high. The children of men neither know nor recognize them. Three times a day they strengthen themselves and call Holy, holy, holy. (Isaiah 6:3)
The Angel of the Presence moved through the preparations. He bound a thousand diadems upon the head of each of the ophanim of majesty, and a thousand times he knelt and fell down before each one of them. Two thousand diadems upon each of the cherubim of glory. Three thousand upon each of the Holy Beasts. Ishmael could not hold those faces in memory the way one holds a neighbor's face. They slipped from the mind's grip like water from a fist.
What remained was the heat of tears on his cheeks and the knowledge that Israel is discussed in rooms where language itself wears armor. He wanted to ask whether any letter on the tablets could be erased by repentance alone. The Prince's silence was not refusal. It said, walk home and live as if erasure were possible and as if every letter still matters.
When Ishmael found his body again, the salt had dried to a film he could not wash off with basin water. Students asked what he had seen. He told them only what a mouth can carry without lying. "An angel wept," he said. "The future is written in more than one ink. There are advocates who bruise themselves for Israel. There are faces no one can keep."
At night he put his hand to his face as if a tear might still be falling from a height no ladder reaches. Seganzegael's weeping had not been a performance for one mystic. It was weather over the whole people, and Ishmael had been held inside its cloud.
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